singlegirl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- First Makeout Post Jeremy 2nd entry of the day...go back one for details about my latest Jeremy �encounter.� So I made out with a guy this weekend. It was with one of my guy friends � I�ve known him for 8 years. He�s good friends with my ex, Ben (my ex before Jeremy). He (the guy I made out with) has a girlfriend � they�ve been dating for 6 months. He started it, but I didn�t stop him. It started with a hug. And then he said, �Give me a cheek.� He kissed my cheek and then trailed kisses down my neck. He then growled, �Oh my God,� which was almost sexier than the kisses. It was just so nice to have someone kiss me, touch me and sleep next to me. We didn�t have sex � we didn�t do anything below the waist. I don�t want to date him, but I would like to have benefits. To do this, he would have to break up with his girlfriend, which isn�t going to happen. He�s in love with her. Why did he hook up with me? When we woke up in the morning, he said, �You�re beautiful in the morning too.� We also made out in the morning. He kissed me goodbye. I was on myspace and saw that he wrote on my ex�s comments, �Huuuuuge!!!� which is what he said when he saw my boobs for the first time. I emailed him and asked him if that�s what he was referring to. He hasn�t responded yet. I�m scared that I�m going to lose him as a friend. He�s a really nice guy (when not cheating on his girlfriend) and I care for him. Also, what if all the guys think I�m a slut now? I�ve now �hooked� up with 4 of them - but it took 8 years to do so. What if his girlfriend finds out and hates me? His girlfriend is a virgin and is planning on giving him her virginity this Saturday. I just hope the guy I made out with respects me enough to not make this a joke. I don�t want the guys talking about my breasts. Why don�t I feel more guilty about it? It was so fun to kiss again. I needed it. Now I can�t get enough. What if I turn into a slut? I drank 18 beers on Saturday and, for the first time, blacked out. I remember every detail of our making out though. We made out until 6 am. I wonder what�s going to happen next? My guess...nothing. 5:11 p.m. - September 05, 2006 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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