singlegirl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Asthma? My breathing has been kind of bad again lately. All day today I�ve felt a tightness in my chest � like someone is sitting on it. I have to keep taking deep breaths and I�m just uncomfortable. Also, the past few days of working out have been difficult for me. I don�t feel like I can get enough air and I have to slow my rhythm down. I have to take quick shallow breaths to get a deep breath. I am thinking now that maybe I have asthma. I know one of the main symptoms of asthma is coughing (especially at night or after working out). I don�t cough at night, but I sometimes cough after working out (if I workout really hard or if it�s been awhile since I worked out). Another symptom is wheezing, which I don�t have (thank God � I cannot stand the sound of wheezing). The other two symptoms I have: shortness of breath and a tightness of the chest. Also, cigarette smoke is a trigger of asthma and my first panic attack happened when I was smoking and now if I�m around cigarette smoke, I don�t feel good (shortness of breath, chest hurts) for up to 2 days afterwards. Also, being overweight can cause asthma (or asthma-like symptoms). Does anyone out there have asthma? Maybe I�m totally off base, but it makes more sense than panic attacks or anything else. *** My hair is super curly today. It�s cute. My new haircut made my hair look much healthier and it�s not as big. Also, my green eyes are matching my green sweater perfectly. I�ve had 3 compliments on it today so far. I love my green eyes. *** I�m getting very excited for my cruise. I haven�t booked it yet, but I�m going to soon. I haven�t really had something to look forward to in a long time. That�s kind of a sad thought... I want to do something tonight besides workout, make dinner, eat dinner and go to bed. With my new lifestyle though, it makes having fun hard. I can�t go to a bar (smoke), go out to dinner (food), go to a movie (money) or really do anything exciting at all. One of my friends commented that I didn�t seem to be very happy lately � it�s not that I�m depressed; it�s just that life isn�t much fun right now. I realize that what I�m going through is nothing compared to what a lot of people go through, but it�s funny how you never realize how great life is until something changes. I hate that there are things I can�t do anymore just because of my health. That makes me so angry, which I guess is a sign of depression. Overall I know that I�m making major improvements on my life, it�s just hard right now. I feel very deprived. I might call my doctor about my asthma � might as well add another bill to my mounting medical expenses. 3:01 p.m. - January 18, 2006 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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