singlegirl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My Confession Back story: a few weeks ago, I stumbled upon an email in Jeremy�s inbox from a jtrenado (which is VERY similar to his name � 2 letters off). There was no message, just an attached photo, which I couldn�t open. I immediately assumed that he had a second email address that he had kept hidden from me because he is a �cheating bastard� (and for some reason decided to send something to his other email account). Then I got drunk (this is the night I blamed it all on the OC and more specifically Seth Cohen) and made wild accusations which made him upset (and that�s when he threatened to not buy the ring). I had all these plans to post the email on here and have you guys help me figure out how to open the photo and track down the email address � but then, we talked, he got mad, denied everything and things were fine. Yesterday I opened a fake hotmail account and emailed jtrenado and acted like I knew Jeremy. It got sent back to me as an invalid yahoo account (which is what he uses). So, that was my confession and I was so afraid that he was going to get it and respond to me � what would I have done then?!? Killed him? Left him? Stupidly stayed with him? But, I guess the whole thing really was nothing and like usual, I overreacted. After that fiasco, I decided to let it go. He looks at other naked girls? Fine � I was even going to NOT (gasp!) check his email for awhile, but when I got to work, my officemate said, �Why is there a naked girl icon on my computer?� I (being the elected computer expert) went over to investigate and couldn�t get it to open. Finally we just deleted it, but guess who the last person on her computer was? Jeremy � when he helped me with my invoicing on Saturday morning. What kind of dumb fuck uses his girlfriend�s co-worker�s computer to download porn?!? And furthermore, we were only here for an hour on a Saturday morning � and we were working the whole time. When did he have time? He, of course, denied it and claims that he has NO idea what it was � whatever. I just hate being lied to and I feel like I am. So, in retaliation, I looked at all sorts of porn sites (unfortunately almost all naked men porn sites are for homosexuals, so he might think that I have an weird fetish) last night while he was doing homework (and didn�t delete my history). I also, because I can be a bitch, googled things like �how to have pleasurable sex even though his penis isn�t big enough� just so he can for once feel inadequate. I also made a sex folder and marked it �Liz-Private� and I can�t wait to see how long it takes for him to open it. I just am so curious to see how he acts when the tables are turned. I feel empowered. Story time: a few years ago, the girls were at dinner together when the conversation turned to penis size. Between all of us, we had pretty much slept with or at least seen all of our guy friend�s penis�. When word got out that we were comparing and talking about their penis� (is this the correct plural?), one of the guys got VERY angry. We tried to explain to him that men are always able to tell a woman�s breast size that we are judged on it all the time and that we were just trying to make the world a little bit more fair. A few years later I found out why he was so upset (this was Nik�s best friend � the one that I slept with) � he has the smallest penis in the world! Ha, ha. I guess I would be upset too. Tonight we are celebrating Jeremy�s last day of class ever (if he passed all of them, and we�re going on the assumption that he did). Tomorrow is an OC extravaganza � 2 hours!! Lots of drinking, lots of friends. Good times. 4:22 p.m. - May 04, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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