singlegirl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Complaints This day has not been wonderful. I have no money - I'm flat broke. I thought I would be getting a full paycheck this Friday, but didn't realize that I only worked one week of this last pay period. So I'm getting half of what I expected. Which, after rent and bills, leaves me with $50 until January 2nd. I still have to buy Christmas presents and live, so I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I also have a $700 minimum payment on my credit card, which is due on the 21st. I'm assuming that since I probably won't be able to pay it, I'm going to get bad credit. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I applied to two other credit cards online today - I was hoping to put half of the total of my first card on the second card and then have two half-used credit cards (and an overall total lower monthly payment). I would use them to buy Christmas presents and to survive until January 2nd, and then I would rip them up and just pay them off. But since both cards I applied to said that it might take up to 30 days, I am basically fucked. Fucked. Fucked. Fucked. I will have money for rent and bills. No food. No gas. No Christmas presents. No credit card bill. No going out money. No New Year's Eve. I honestly could probably sell drugs to make ends meet, but I don't want to get into that. I might not have a choice though. I could ask my parents for money, but considering that I HATE doing that, I really really really don't want to. Hopefully I will just be approved for the credit card(s) within the next few days, but seeing how this year went for me, I doubt it. And speaking of crappy years (yes, this entire entry will be a list of my complaints), I really wanted to have a fantastic New Year's Eve so I could say Fuck You to 2003 (loss of job, boyfriend, self-esteem, happiness, and money), but now it looks like that might not happen. Even if I scraped enough money together to do what I want to do, I found out that Jeremy has to work on New Year's Eve until 11 pm. I could decide not to drive two hours and stay here and party with my friends (limo, cocktail dress, three live bands, a casino, all my friends and 1,500 other people in one of the nicest hotels downtown - and all for only $80), but then he would be by himself. If I drive to him, I would get there around 11, and then we would probably sit in his apartment watching TV (no cable either so we'd be stuck with Dick Clark's Rockin New Year's Fucking Eve), and trying desperately to get drunk off of Hams or Natty Light since that's all we'd be able to afford. I'd probably get high instead and then pass out. Hey might as well end this shitty-ass year on a shitty-ass note though, right? And in reality, New Year's is even that big of a deal to me, I just want to have money. Does anyone know of a way I can make money in a short amount of time? I can't sell plasma, I don't want to prostitute or sell drugs. I don't feel like robbing a bank or any other type of store. Blah, I just hope MasterCard or Discover will come through for me. Don't they want to give me a card? They'll make a shit load of money off of me. They'd be dumbasses not to give me a card pronto. Okay, going to eat. I have very little left to chose from. Tonight is leftover Sloppy Joe's, and tomorrow and Thursday is frozen pizza. After that, I'm not sure. Oh, and also being broke is not conducive to dieting. I hate eating shit food, but it's the cheapest and right now I can't afford to eat well. God Damn! 7:17 p.m. - December 16, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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