singlegirl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Clean House I am so full right now. I had a half pound burger from Hardees. It was pretty good, but it was HUGE. If you ever try one, you don't need to get fries with that. We finally have a clean house. It took HOURS. And hours. We finally finished at 10. I bet it won't stay clean for very long though. We ordered pizza and drank while we cleaned, so it wasn't too bad. Oh and we watched a classic Lifetime movie about bulima. Good times. Ben came over last night to pick up his book. I cried when he left. I'm pathetic. I love how when I see him I don't act like it even bothers me that we're not together. I don't try to hug or kiss him. When we broke up, I didn't even cry even though he was. So anyway, I cried for about a minute and then started cleaning. Weird. Anyway, don't know what I'm doing tonight. I might go see my friend's band play. Or I might just stay home. Ben is going out tonight. To the bar I've been going to every Wednesday for years and years. I don't feel like going tonight though. Is this a step towards recovery? Probably not. Probably I'll go, get drunk, and sleep with him. Not really. I think it'll be good if I avoid him tonight. And luckily he is working ALL weekend, so I'll have all of our friends to myself. 1:57 p.m. - June 25, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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